Mummy's bday~

Yesterday was mummy's bday... so we went to the our house nearby coffeeshop to have dinner and we treat her lo~ hahaha~
There were chilli crabs, oat prawns, fish, egg and veggies......

And of cos i won't missed the chance to take some candid shots of her... all of us stopped eating le, and there she was keep on eating her crabs yo... she must be thinking dun waste food hoh... hahaha~
See she is holding on to the crab....

Now she is trying to get some of the shells out of the place... hmm, still dun give up??

Finally...... She put it into her mouth... muahahaha~

Wow not bad ah, got process de.. hahaha~

So back at home around 9.45pm, time to cut cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The cake was my mum made herself while she was at phoon huat learnt de... eh some walnut cake ah... ok la... taste not tat bad la, not tat bad... haha~
See she so happy to see her cake lighted wif candles.. haha~

Ok now can take a pic....

Time to sing bday song~ happy bday to mummy~

Ok finally make a wish.. she like not making wish ah... see her palms.. more like praying to buddha~ hahaha~
Wah wah blow candles until so hard~ scary mum!

Family photos... my dad never wear clothes tat why had to hide behind us... eee~

Last but not least my nice nice box from jieyan~ haha i asked her can i have it, she said can!! hahaha~ This box contain very cute cake too... kitty head cake... aiyo also very nice~

Woo wish my mum will be healthy and stay happy always and oh ya i know wat she always hope for... she wan to every yr go holiday~ hahahaha~

This is Me lyrics~

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Jus let it end ba~

To him...........

I think is quite hard to pretend nth happened.... pretend i never said those things to u at all.... ever since tat incident, i thot we could still be normal frens... but until yesterday i was wrong.... really wrong...

Yesterday out of no where my hp photos all disappeared.... i was so shocked... wat had happened man.......... then Pream asked me why i so worry abt it... i suddenly said "becos got 1 photo inside my hp, i......." i paused.... Pream looked at me and smiled and said "Is a guy?" I faster lied and said "no", he said "Dun bluff, i know is a guy.. jus take the photo again la....." So i jus replied, "I can't cos it is not the same anymore...." Why is it jus a photo but it seem so precious to me.... Why.... so after tat i switched off and on my hp, all the photos returned.... tat photo was also there too~ a sigh of relief.... when i reached home i pondered.... why do i have to feel relief.... it is impossible between us~ confirm plus guarantee.....

Today saw his nick........... i suddenly envy the person tat he help to promote the webby in his nick..... and i suddenly realised all along i actually envy tat person..... how slow can i go.... and to him, maybe i really nothing, not even fren ba~ (u all may think i emo tat why i typed all these... but i am not~ jus tat it took so long for me to realise)

I envy the fact tat:

He called tat person to help him wif his work... i helped him once which was due to the fact tat tat person dunno wan to help and asked me to help........ so he no choice he asked me help, but yes i am not much of a help... he know tat and i know tat too....

He willing to sacrifice some of his time to give tat person surprises during tat person party... for me, he forget abt it and didn't even pay for my present....

Tat person i guess is the only one tat can make him so angry, until to the point tat he initiate to talk to me in MSN jus to tell me wat tat person said......

Both of them have common topics to say, but my topics wif him are getting lesser and lesser....

Well i am jus purely envy not jealousy yo.. tat i very confirm... cos tat person is an important person to me... if tat person is important to me, i confirm will not be jealous de... is the same thing tat as long as u are my frens, i will never be jealous of u de... well tat is me~

To him, i felt tat i am not tat impt as a fren at all.... (actually all along i know~ But i thot time can make things better)

He gd mood... he treat me gd, show "some" concern......

He bad mood.. he asked me to leave him alone, dun disturb him....

When we are all busy wif our life, he won't come and ask how are u or wat.... always i am the one doing it as i always do this to all my frens.... as a fren i care abt his life this and tat, to him he doesn't care even for me as a fren....

He treat me nice sth is all for the sake of his face, he said b4 he can't live w/o his face and pride.... so my lst impression of him as a gentleman is due to this factor ba....

Why do i try so hard to be a gd fren to him when he dun even bother................ why must i always hope tat as a fren, when he need someone to talk to i will try my best to talk to him... when he complained things to me in MSN, i will call him straight easier to talk...........

Now i think abt it be frens also like tat ba............. jus a nobody to him... compare to an ant, i am like nothing ba~

我为什么要这样 默默的对你好? 就所是朋友 , 我也是真的当你是真心朋友 ... 可是对你而言 , 我其实 是一个不起眼的人吧 ..... 这么久的努力, 其实都是只有我在真心诚意的当你是朋友吧 .... 我觉得 好笨 .. 我想是时候 , 我放弃这些努力吧 .... 因为我再这么努力 , 我们永远都不会是好朋友 , 也不可能是知心朋友的 ....

我放弃了 ...

我觉得真的没有必要再见面了 ... 就然这一切变成历史吧.. 不想再看到你然我想起我有多傻 .....

If anyone of u ask me again... do i regret knowing him....

My answer is....

I regret... cos he let me realise how silly i was.....

To him:

I will jus let it end..... Hope we will never see each other again and will never know any news abt each others ba~

I dun wan to know anythings abt him anymore.... dun wan to hear his name anymore~

Dun worry pple, i am alright.. really... no tears nothings.. jus tat i know wat i wan ba~

Last day for attachment students~

Today was the last day of their attachments for the TP students.... 5 mths.... wow time flies.....~

Last friday went out wif them to eat fish & co... finally can update the photos let u all see....



U all realised the guy at the extreme right, his face thruout all the photos look the same? haha like photoshop hoh.. i keep disturbed him on tat... tat is R...

I like this pic.. we looked nice and sweet muahaha~~ hahaha~

Today i knocked off at 4pm but i got class at 7pm.. so i volunteered myself to be their camera man.... i walked here and there wif them to help them take photos.... i only upload some la huh... hahahaha~
The short hair girl is the girl i dislike the most in the lab.. she is SSG... stupid smelly girl!! When i helped them took the photos, i said "1,2,3...." then she suddenly said "cheese......" -_-" yucks~

Wif tired mag mag~
Cute right PY.. haha~
Haha Ad like boss huh~ ha~
Why we all looked slinted??
Wif me!!!!
Ah!! SW closed her eyes!!!!

Dr CHF very funny~ When T asked her whether can take photos wif him, he said no... then she asked why.. then he said why should i.. then she said becos their last day then he said oh ok lo... i was liked -_-".. hahaha~ but too bad they can't find a chance to take photos wif Dr GCH... sad!

5 bestest frensS~

Their uncle senwan~ haha~!

Haha JY like small girl, i think when ms yen see this photos her heart will melt for her.. haha~

The next 2 photos i shall rate it as the top 2 pose among all the photos... the winners goes to Sam and Maryam! haha~
Wif mr nice, mr WONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All the best to them~

Gap or no gap?

Yesterday after my revision... i went to see my facebook~ haha it's been a while since i last logged in... cos normally i logged in jus to change my profile pic.... but i never keep myself updated wif their applications or anything to do wif my frens' profile.....

So ya, yesterday i went....

So i happened to see one of my sec sch fren's photo... so i decided to go into her albums and see la.... kpo ma.... then when i saw her others photos, i realise now she looked more like a lady le, no more girl lo.... also dress better........ hahaha~ but somehow dunno why hmmm....... when i saw her photos.... haha i felt a kind of gap between her lifestyle now and mine...? ya lo.... actually ever since around yr 3 in poly, i already felt this way but it was so strong la... she loves to club and hang out late.... haha her life is tat kind of happening... hahahaha~ mine not said not happening la... i dun always club... when i club, is like one year, 1-2 times la... hahaha~ occasionally will talked to her on MSN la... hahaha~ then she also admit she like to play la... hahaha~ then she said now she always speak in english, never speak in chinese le.. (she now study abroad at australia, queensland)..... so i actually wonder near to yr end when she come back, wat will it be like??? will we have less topic to talk abt??? hmm i wondered......

Last mth when i meet up wif my sec sch frens, eh... haha i really feel a very obvious gap.... haha cos nothing to talk ah... haha *faint*..... the guys talking abt their army life... then me and another girl fren, eh.. talk here and there but for some moments, we were jus staring in blank or listening to wat the guys were talking abt.... haha~ it was a short and quick outing... haha i guess we really long time never meet up, really got our own life... can't seem to keep up wif each other... hmmm.... the worse thing was i keep yawn....!! see how terrible it was.. i mean me la... haha~

Tat day also saw a fren's blog... well, haha the way the blog being typed is like eh like there is sth happened within her, i dunno is emo or there is sth my fren is going thru... but i dun have a single clue.... my fren dun said, i asked also no use cos the answer i get will always be lines tat telling u there is nothing, everything is fine..... so when i reading the blog, my head got alot of question marks... felt very curious... but haha no point la huh.... Well, for me, when i not happy, or when i felt troubled, i will looked for someone to talk to, of cos the person must be someone i am comfortable wif yo... not comfortable one, i will only jus joke and no serious conversation or even dun talk...!! hahaha~maybe i am not my fren, and my fren is not me... so i can't expect the same behaviour in return... wat to do.... everyone got their own way of doing things, own kind of thinking too~ so no matter how curious i am, i guess i won't ask la.. i jus act blur, as if i really sotong, dunno anything at all la... haha wait ask le uncomfortable how right... heez....

However for some frens whom u seldom meet up wif......... No matter wat, there is still no gap!! amazing~ hahaha~ i got one sec sch fren, i seldom meet up wif her... like one yr 3-4 times?? but we always can find stuffs to talk abt.... i remember lst day of chinese new yr, i even went to her auntie's house to eat dinner cos her auntie's house jus one storey above me... haha~ cos if not i home alone... hahaha~ sometime in MSN will disturb her.... the last time i saw her was early october as i went to amway to buy my shampoo then she also went there to get sth... we only exchanged a few lines, then i go home, she go eat dinner wif frens.. but somehow it felt ok... nothing wrong... no gaps, nothing.... hmmm.... wow wonder how all these kind of thingy works.... anyone know?? hahaha~

Vain me~

Remember i told u all yesterday i bought body shop eyeshadows......??

Today after sch.. i went to bugis's cold storage to collect my $200 voucher wif KX...... then after tat i went to fancl to buy blusher, foundation puff and blusher brush..... hahaha i very vain hoh... wan to be pretty pretty ma!!! muahahaha~
muahahahaha my purchases!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tat circle box is the body shop eyeshadow, named chocolate... although i dun like chocolate, i like the colour.. abit simmer too~

OMG can't wait to use them.... when should i use them lei....?

And oh ya, i can't go HK anymore... cos i got test tat day and well, i willing to sacrifice $750 compared to sacrificing $1550 for a subject.... well no choice.... i won't say i am sad... i feel ok ah.. but well... not said i rich or wat... but i always think tat no point brooding over $ matters... jus tat next time i must learn to plan it well la.... so perhaps next time try to brain wash my family to go wif me... yup i am going to do tat.... this yr can't go, doesn't mean i forever can't go right... yay!

Always look on the bright side......

Halloween....

Yesterday was halloween.... after work went to sch for my lab work... after tat meet up wif mr AJ, R and the 3 poly students at the glasshouse, fish and co.....

Wah the lst thing i wan to say is........ i will NEVER have my bday celebration at fish & co... haha never!!!!!!

Well, cos u all know fish & co got this cheer thingy right... (yesterday i jus knew abt it)... so the bday girl/boy will have to stand on the chair and hold the sparkle... then the fish & co staffs will do their cheer and sing bday song to u... hahaha R was saying it was fun... but i told him eh, i feel pai seh yo... somemore so many pple i dunno... hahaha~ dun feel comfortable... haha i prefer a full of surprises and not loud bday... hahahah~ yesterday we sat there, all the pple around us are having bday tat day... aiyo...

So in the end, me, R and AJ treat the poly students.... well they deserved our treating la, cos they helped us alot.... yay~ they were shocked when the 3 of us paid the bills... hahahaha~ after tat we took some photos using AJ's hp.... woo must ask him to bluetooth me man!!!!! after tat we jus went straight home yo, cos next day R and AJ need to work.... i also feel abit sleepy lo~ oh ya oh ya... mr AJ he is in grp C!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so so so shocked... i thot he lied to me but R said he is not............. eee he going to bully me again!!!!! hmmm~

Oh well wat to do... boss made him go grp C also no choice hoh... when i heard tat i was very shocked i tell u all.... then AJ asked me why my reaction like tat... so my reaction is i am happy or not happy.... then i eh eh eh... speechless.... hahahaha~ no comments....... -_-"""

Oh yesterday i also bought an eyeshadow..... thanks to ms yen!!!! she got body shop $10 discount... then i used.. so i only need to pay $8.90... thanks!!!!!!!!!!! happy!!!!!

How u wan ur bday to be like???

Have u ever thot of or should i said wish how u wan ur bday to be like???

Well... for me.... the past 22 yrs of my life.........

I wished for a mini bday party~ i had never have a party b4..... well for my 21st bday... it was not really a party... it was held at post bar and i celebrated my bday wif one of my sec sis's frens..... it was not like a party of my own.... i wanted a party but my mum think is a waste of time... but my 2 elder sisters they all still managed to have party lei. woo~ hmmm!!!

Somehow i hope tat for 1 yr, for my bday, i would have a surprise.... it would be like.... the pple close to me would surprised me by perhaps bringing me to a place.. and to my surprised all the whole grp of pple close to me appeared at that place too to celebrate my bday~ hahahaha~then perhaps one of themwould hold the cake and everyone started singing happy bday song to me....

But... i guess it will never happened... who in the world will help to plan such a big surprise for u, u tell me.. who will be so gd to me.. my parents confirm dun bothered... if u said future bf, haha well also hard la.. frens... haha well, it will be a big project.. dun think they will have time ba.... even over buying a bday present, also difficult la, nobody free to buy or got pple never pay up for my present, so hai... depressing man~ haha ya lo.....

Well, when i lst heard how one of my fren celebrated her bday and how some of her frens give her surprises by holding the cake and sing her a song... i really really envy her...she is lucky as she got frens tat willing to do all these for her.. and ya sad to say, one of her fren is my fren and tat fren forget my bday in some sense until i mentioned abt my bday myself.. sad right....

Although u all may think well is nothing much, well i agreed it is really nothing much abt this bday thingy... but is jus sth from young i wished for.... haiz... sob~ It is true tat u no need a big present or a big party to make ur bday a meaningful one...ya tat i agreed... so i always tell myself tat whenever my bday approaches... jus enjoy myself wif pple close to me gd enough ba....

I suddenly think of this bday thingy becos i was watching a show then they were saying sth abt bday celebration.. then this strong thots came into my mind...

Well i guess something u can only think in ur mind, but in reality it will never be true... jus a dreamy wish i had since i am young ba.. so Agnes face the reality ba~

So wat abt u all? Wat do u hope ur bday celebration will be like?? the one tat u always wish for, wat will it be.....?

My weekend + Public Holiday~

Last friday, i had my lab test and my mid-semester test......

Well to my amazed, the lab test was opened-book de.... phew.... so since it was opened-book, it had lighten my brain's burden alot yo..... Then for my mid-semester test...... hmmm.... 25 MCQs........ some are straight forward.... but some hoh............. I DUN EVEN KNOW WAT THEY ARE ASKING! Cos i never encountered those term in my notes....!!! or maybe i never pay attention to them..... hahaha!! ok la but at least majority i know how to do.... majority.... hmmm..... so after tat i went home.......... ENJOYMENT TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahooo~~~

I continued watching my taiwan drama series on the net.... hot shot...!!! also known as 篮球火.... super nice nice..... then when my dad go to sleep... i watched 命中注定我爱你 lend to me by KX.... my classmate..... haha it was super funny~ hahahaha~ very nice too~ but when approaching ending part, confirmed very sad de... i sure will cry de.... hahaha~ so these few days my schedule were play gamesS, 篮球火, play gamesS and 命中注定我爱你... haha after today must study again..... for my exams............... jia you agnes!!!!!!!!

On saturday went to do manicure... a new shop opened at my house downstairs only... normal price is $20 then opening special 10% discount... so in the end i only paid $18... hahaha the service was not bad..... haha i think as long as the shop still remain there, i will go visit the shop again.. so nearby somemore so cheap ma... ok la....!

My nail colour actually was peach colour... haha but it turn out to be like doing french manicure... haha but i still like it la, as long as is light colour, i like it....!!! hahaha~ happy~

Today deepavali, went out wif victor-kun and shiqin..... we eat dim sum at crystal jade at PS..... haha~ shiqin can really talked to me abt guy.... then haha she shared her story to me and victor... then of cos, they still asked me abt ah fu la........ haha they asked wat i jus answered la.... haha so wat i said to u all dun said to others ok~ hahaha~ actually also nothing much too~ haha... i also took a photo wif shiqin aka er ma... wif her new hairstyle.. eh i dun think is hairstyle.. should be hair colour....
Her hair colour more to eh red ba... haha~ sth new yo~

Today b4 i go meet them.. eh.. haha ok i admit... i was vain~ hahaha i took some photos of myself b4 i go out la.. cos cos cos... my lst time wearing tube go out yo.... without wearing a cardi over it... hahaha~ normally i will wear a cardi over my tube.. but today i tried jus wearing tube itself... hahaha~ it was not tat bad la... ops... haha *thick-skinned*...

Then later i realised.. my clothes colour near to july's clothes colour too~ hahaha~ so i took photos wif it la! i called my sec sis helped me take the photos... haha until she wan to kill me.. cos i keep call her to retake... haha~

Haha ok ma?? hahaha~ ok tml going to work... and got sch......... argh..........................

Woo opinions......

Today was looking at Auntie Ong's vacation photos... took at china... it was my lst time seeing her husband.... well her husband... i must said although in his late fifties.... but but but...... he still got a kind of charm yo... is like u can see tat when he was young tat time, he was actually quite charming.... both me and sam think tat way la.... auntie ong so shy and said tat why she chose him as husband, cos he was handsome and they were love at lst sight........ Oh my........ in this world there is really such thing.... last time i dun believe, but auntie ong's example was real yo... and ya well i guess it do happened ya.... but jus tat...... it will never happened on me... cos well i need to know tat person b4 i could like tat person.. so never never will happen to me.... but saw a pic of her and the husband.. the scenery was nice and their pose were normal but their smile... wow, u can see a kind of "sweetness" in it... well so many years of marriage of cos ya.... tat photo really very sweet..... we told her to develop the photo into bigger size and frame it up.... it was...........loving................... envy yo.....

Haha will i ever find the one tat i will be able to take a photo yrs later and still remain so sweet ma...... well... no answer to tat.... haha jus let it be ba.....

Today also finished work quite early... so had a short chat wif Mr AJ (latte)...... our conversation were here and there.... and one moment he asked......

AJ: Agnes, how do u find me as a guy, as a bf? i mean as a whole.....
Me: Oh lst impression?
AJ: No, as a whole... after the lst impression......
Me: Oh ok............. hmmmm........

I paused quite long, need to really think hard......... after few seconds, ok... here i go..........

Me: Well, u give me a feeling tat u will give ur gf surprises here and there......
AJ: Uh huh..........
Me: Then u quite particular on ambient, so if u bring ur gf out. i guess u bring her to a place tat suit the ambient between the both of u.... u dun anyhow bring to any place....
AJ: Uh huh.........
Me: But for the negative side, i think u are very sensitive...... If ur gf said to u sth she dun mean it but she jus said out of anger, u will get hurt by it and think deep into the line she jus said.......
AJ: Uh agnes, there is different between sensitive and think too much... i am not sensitive but i think "think too much" suit me more ya....
Me: Isn't the both of them have the same meaning?
AJ: No, they are different.....
Me: Ok lo... then u think too much... ok now... haha.... but ur temper wise i dunno la...
AJ: Well i dun have temper and i dun like to be angry... i rather be sarcastic....
Me: Oh ya, i know, can see... haha.... ok since u ask me then i ask u back.. wat abt me lei.....?

Without seconds thots, he straightaway can blurted out sth lo.....

AJ: Well, i find tat u are a girl tat need alot of attention.. u wan ur bf to give u full attention......
Me: OMG, u are wrong... i dun need attention, depend on circumstances but normally i dun, and i dun like sticky guy tat always need my attention too.... u are wrong man....
AJ: Is it? well u do give me tat feeling.....
Me: Huh, jus becos i talked alot doesn't mean i want attention lei........ woo booo~
AJ: Ok ok, then u have high expectations.....
Me: Huh where got..... i dun go for $ or looks or wat... jus character.... i think the factor here that u are referring to should be the ability of the guy to be ablt to impress me... he must have general knowledge.... like tat high expectation meh...... u anyhow....
AJ: Well but they still can be high expectations...
Me: Ok ok, then somemore.....
AJ: Ok ok..... Then i find tat u are a girl tat is very hard to keep up wif....
Me: Huh as in? I too active? cannot keep up wif my pace?
AJ: No, i mean like u are one person tat dun easily put ur trust in a guy and u also dun easily like a guy....
Me: Huh so serious huh?
AJ: Ya..... Is like u having a barrier around u like tat.....
Me: *dotz* Where got.. i still talk to guys and joke wif them wat.... like now i also talking to u.....
AJ: Well jus feel tat u are not letting the guys know more abt u so easily.........
Me: Wah tat i dunno liao... i dun think so ba.........

Slowly slowly we jus ended our conversation..........

I got such a serious problem meh?

I think his observing skills quite poor.... ops...... hahaha...... but tat were sth new abt how pple think abt me.... weird though...............

Oh ya and yesterday i went to see his photo again on MSN...... ok phew.... my heart beat dun beat fast anymore...... normal liao... when i saw the photo, it was jus a photo and it was like "oh tat him"... haha phew lucky lucky........ yay!!!!

Test is coming~

Woo this friday is my lab test and mid semester test....~ hmm i actually dunno wat to prepare.... in some sense... lab test covered all the practical until wednesday so i can't really study for it as haven finish all the practical.... mid semester test duration is 30 mins all MCQs.... haha so lecturer said jus know the main point... but haha i kiasu i studied every details.... cos aiyo scared lei... haha~ can't wait for 24th to come... need a short break... haha break until deepavali then study hard again for exam on 13th november.....

Faster come.... haha~

Seriously i can't stop thinking abt wat will happened to my hk trip.... Argh...... really no one to blame but myself.... i never so troubled b4 man.............. now go to work have to admit i can't concentrate very well..... for studies at least i still can.. dunno why work i can't seem to concentrate very well... keep have to tell myself to stay focus time to time..... oh no~ wat should i do............................................. wan cry also no tears will come out~ wan shout also no voice to shout out.... wan help but only i can help myself now........ this is terrible yo~ terrible terrible...........

Today went MSN saw his photo.............. lst time saw him put his own photo... i should said tat photo is really nt bad............... lst saw it, my heart beat kinda of beat faster... but ya as usual divert my attention to talking to my cousin online.... and everything back to normal....

OMG, how many time i had to divert my attention yo.....................

How silly can i go~

Haiz... i really very very blur this time around.... hmmm......

Well, yesterday i asked my boss whether i can take one day on the 5th of dec.... then as usual she asked me why... then i tell her i going holiday.... then she said alot of pple also going on leave and is a friday the lab will be busy... how... she asked me how??!??! then i told her i bought tickets le.... then she asked me to come up wif idea to counter the problems then let her know........ oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then i told Maryam they all abt it... then they said i am in the wrong becos b4 i go book tickets... i should have asked her can anot..... well then i realised ya i really in wrong yo.... haha actually this past few time i take leave she always said ok is becos is exam leave!!!!!!!!! or my book leave....!!!! tat why she die die have to approve.... but now... oh no..... then my colleagues they all said tat actually is not easy to take leave from her de.... ok now i know why liao..... aiyo......... see la how la now la die la....!!!!!!!!!!! T_T

Maryam they all helped me think of tonnes of ideas to counter her.... and finally we all agreed on a final idea... tat is to wait until around mid november when my shifu plan the roster and remind my shifu abt it (since my shifu said can, less one more pple still can manage the workload de.... she even encouraged me to go hk haha~) and propose to my boss tat shifu had planned out the roster and there will be someone covering my duties.. and of cos b4 i said i must asked my shifu for consent to use her name or wat la...

Oh my.... but should i prepare for the worse....? i think i should........ hope my $750 won't fly away.... or maybe i can sell off the ticket to raine's mum?? hahahaha~

Pray hard to Bodhisttiva~

But thanks to all those colleagues of mine tat help me wif the ideas thingy and encourages me yo~ thank u!!!

TCC part 1

Ok la i shall start wif TCC part 1...

On 10th oct, we went to clarke quay The central TCC to have our dinner... our clothes theme was black....

Me, Mag, Maryam and Sam were the lst grp to arrive... after tat followed by PY, pretty yo tat day... her eyes real big like doll doll yo.... then after tat follow by Ms yen.... haha she ah... at lst she told us by 7pm she will reached... haha but we know her... her estimation is a "no no"... hahahaha~ so funny.... but ok la, ms yen managed to get here quite early though past 7pm la... heez... after tat the latest was mr anton... when he came he was abt to sit beside PY, we called him to sit opp sam cos tat seat was reserved for him... haha he so gd boy, straightaway moved there.. hahah... hahahaha~

But b4 PY, ms yen and anton came.. we ordered some side dishes and drinks to eat and drink lst cos we were so so so hungry..... here are wat we ordered.........
mine was the tea... haha got the "teapot" de.. haha i purposely ordered tat becos dun u all think tat it really looked like those tea tat tai-tai drink de ma... haha so i wan to have a feel of being tai-tai so i ordered tat la... muahahaha~ must start practising now...my dream of being tai-tai.... heez.............

Tat the mushroom soup we ordered.... yummy.. looked quite big portion hoh...

This is called the "deep blue pack"... haha the deep fried so called sticks ah, got different feeling de lei.. when i ate, i got tuna.. maryam got salmon... dunno who got scallop.... then another one i dunno is wat.. haha then mr anton, he got VEGETARIAN-like.... hahahaha!! so funny.... mr anton yo... we must keep stuffed him wif food then he will really eat, if not he so shy... everything also "wait", "later", "u can have it" hahaha~

So once everyone arrived... we started ordering our main course... yummy~ yummy~
This is my lasagne..... eh i think is ham, chicken mushroom.... i shared this wif mag and mag shared her salmon wif me... we half half each... heez....
Tat her salmon wif curry and banana flavour.... haha do u all know tat when u ordered salmon, they will also ask whether u wan medium, well done tat kind like steak yo... haha we were shocked.... ya now we know.... heez...

I didn't managed to take a photo of wat maryam ordered.... some meatballs thingy.... haha looked nice too....

This was wat PY ordered.... baked linguine ah.... if i am not wrong...? haha~

This was wat anton and ms yen ordered de... seafood agilo oilgo??? haha i dunno how to spell and we dunno how to pronounce... should hear how mr anton pronounce... haha~

Sam ordered this.... looked delicious too right.... woo~~~

So from our plate, we all will cut small piece for each other and as usual mr anton ah.. haha u dun ask him... jus straightaway put into his plate can le.. hahahaha!!!! now we all know his pattern ah... hahaha~

After tat came our DESSERTS!!!!!!!!!!! favourite!!!! *drooling*
TADA~ Oh in case u all curious wat tat eeyore doing there... haha the cup and eeyore were the present we gave PY and one more necklace... she wore it straightaway... haha~ so on right..... ok back to the desserts.... mine was the strawberry organic soy bean pudding.............. to my left was wat PY ordered.... some TCC special.... then top of PY's was wat ms yen ordered, some raspberry cake... then beside it was wat mag ordered...... devil chocolate yo.......... CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY ENEMY!!!!!!!!!! hahaha~ then next to it was wat mr anton ordered.... sour cream cheesecake.... all looked very nice right...........

I liked this too~ strawberry parfait!!!! cos cos cos no no no no CHOCOLATE! hahaha~ and alot of ichigo!!!!! Oiishi~ Wow when u eat desserts...... there is a kind of feeling evolved.... how to describe......... is like..... is like...... the feeling.................. the feeling of falling in love.... hahaha~ tat wat my ex-colleague once said.... heez.... hahaha~ so when u all eat desserts got the feel ma...... got ma huh.... hahahaha~

We eat until 10 sth yo then guess wat.. how much this whole meal cost us??? guess guess......

We....... spent...............................................................

$340++

Haha i am shocked we ate so so much yo~ haha power hoh... heez...

We actually took alot of photos there....

So u all must wait for TCC part 2.... i will get the photos and upload it asap.... muahahaha~

update update~

Haha like a long time since i really really update my blog properly... haha only few days to be exact... but to me is very long... muahahaha~

Actually last thursday one of a dr treat us eat nasi bryani and also gave us a session of lucky dip....!! woo surprise surprise....!!!! Sam got the biggest present, then i thot her present will be a very very very big surprise... indeed it was.... haha a big packet of milo.....!! hahaha~ then shifu got a present when hold, like water bag..... water pillow?? water mouse pad??? when she opened......... a pack of UIC wash detergent....... hahaha~ mr An get a mirror tat can paste on his locket...... Ad get a very very eh O-bia the photo frame... we all bursted out laughing when we saw tat........ as for me............... tada..........................
A kitty cup............. hahaha~ now if i jus opened the cap........ it will show.............

Tat i am drinking milo..... hahahaha~ it was quite small but for me jus nice... cos u all know la, i drink water abit abit de.... hahaha, but this cup ah, outside plastic inside glass..... so when i pour hot drink into it, and when i hold the cup, the cup dun feel warm at all.... and when i pour cold water.... it dun feel cold and there is no presence of water vapour condense on the outer surface of the cup.. cool right....!!

After work, went to meet my classmate, KX, to go have dinner... so while walking to food court.... i told her i need to go angie the choice for a while... i feel like eating cake.... in the end i bought the cake... i told her how much craving i had for cakes.... then suddenly i pass the cake to her and said is for her.... early bday present.... hahaha~ she got a shocked and keep laughed... and said no wonder she find it weird why i suddenly got craving for cakes out of no where.... haha ops..... tada tat was the cake... cookies delight....
Then in the end, we ended up sharing the cake together as she offered me la... but of cos i only eat a bit la, then most of it let her eat... hahahaha~

Her bday was the same day as PY.... ok once we have finished complied the photos for last friday TCC, i shall write a post on it and let u all see the pic.... cos PY real gorgerous tat day~

Oh disappointed.....~

Wah, on wednesday i was pissed wif victor-kun yo.... argh~

Well, we were smsing as he was telling me tat the girl he like, dun wan to go into a relationship....

So as normal i was advising him how la... well be frens and slowly see how lo... since she still young too......

Then he said one line i was really disappointed wif him as i dun expect him to say it....

He said..............

He didn't really thot of having a serious relationship but an open one (meaning have or dun have also ok de)...........

OMG, wat the.............

I told him off and said why he wan to behave like Jed, who change gf like changing clothes like tat......................

He replied me saying "wanted to try sth different.........."

Ok how terrible of him..........

I completely dun wan to reply him...... so i jus went to sch for my practical.....

When i reached home, he smsed me asking all the bday dates of our frens....

I didn't wan to reply.....

He called..........

I didn't wan to answer... totally disappointed.....

He smsed again, saying is it i angry or wat, he won't behave like jed....

Then i jus replied, "if u really behave like him i will help ur parents kill u!"

When i told xiu, well she know why i get so worked up.... like mother like daughter... haha.... Thanks xiu~

Maybe i should explained why i am so angry..... Victor-kun and i were close frens.... he tell me stuffs abt himself and i do the same things... so gradually u will like know wat type of person he is..... he is a nice fren, will be a blur guy but faithful bf and husband... i realised these past few yrs of our frenship............. i angry not becos i very zai yi or i have feelings for him... definitely no.... i am those kind of person, if starting no sparks mean no sparks... i won't wait until few yrs later then got sparks de... no no no~ so since i know him so long, i will never never like him but we will remain as frens de....................

So i shall clarify one LAST TIME................... Victor and i will always be frens............. yup and full-stop.....................................................

Have u ever...........

Have u ever being in a situation when a person tell u sth tat make u pondered???

I had ever been in tat situations, many many times...........

Recently another one make me ponder.... occasionally......... really occasionally... and it was not really a very vexed thingy to me....

A told me tat B got slp at A's house b4..............

Ok this sentence sound very the big.... it can be many things..... it may not be wat u all think it is..... haha....

My lst impression of this sentence was jus normal.... ok B went to A's house wif frenss and suddenly B jus tired and hope to have a short nap..... Well.... i pondered occasionally doesn't mean i dun trust whoever or wat.... till now i believe tat my lst impression was correct based on how long i know A and how long i know B... and one thing why do i have to keep vexed on tat issue right.... yup tat is how i ensured myself for wat i believed in..... and since A told me so normally i think there is nothing more than tat..............

Well, maybe u all will think maybe since u know A and B long enough why not casually asked them....

Hmm, actually i dun think this kind of things need to be clarify... cos i guess when u ask, more probs will be created... and jus make the matter worse when it jus doesn't really matter to u nor affected u......

So i guess jus leave things as it is ba....

For those who think u know who and who i'm talking abt... ok jus keep to urself ba.. dun ask me... cos i guess i won't wan to comment on it.........

For those who dunno but curious, also dun ask me.....

I jus dun wan to comment cos i jus scared of getting into conflicts, arguments, debates or any other negative thingy la.....

Yup ok... i said finished liao....

Haha Ja Ne......

A-mei Star concert + JQ's bday outing~

Yesterday went to A-mei star concert.... it was fantastics!!!!!!!!!!!!! all the songs she sang are my favourite....!!!! then also can sing along wif her.... weee............. got one song when she sing, i super high cos tat song is raine sing during last time our lecture de........ oh my god..... those memories............. why raine not there wif me... hahaha~ tat song starting goes "现在才是关键 , 不要就干干脆脆" then the chorus go "come on come on 给我感觉..." haha, so sad she not there to sing wif me yo~

A-mei singing power ah, wah flawless.... haha nothing to complain abt... she also sang the song by alicia keys... "if i ain't got u"... nice too~

Took 2 photos only b4 the concert start....
Then today went to tamp to meet zk, alex, jq and serene for jq's bday outing la... we went to eat cafe cartel... we eat fast fast yo... cos our movie start at 1.25pm.. then they came late, suppose to meet 12pm lo... aiyoyoyoyo!!! we watch "eagle eye" haha not a bad movie la... but i have to admit tat starting i feel abit tired... haha... dunno is it i tired or the starting part i dun really understand then bored abit... haha but at the end i know wat is it all abt.... haha~ after tat we wanted to have some drink.... wanted to go starbucks, no space... so we go coffeebeans... no space too.... aiyo sad, so we go back to cafe cartel... haha~ stuck there until 6.10pm then we headed back home......... haha wanted to tidy up my notes... so tml i can study abit... haha i kan chiong type... heez.....

Yup tml working lo.. Oh~ sian~ haha!!

Flu vaccination + CS's party.....

Oh i think i should use "yesterday" since it is already over 12am lo.... muahaha....

Yesterday, me, mag, mr anton and adrian were talking abt the flu vaccination.... then we were asking is it long queue anot... then they said no yo... so mr anton very ON, he straightaway said he will go take his jab at 1.50pm.... haha... then i also curious ah, cos really meh, no queue..... so i ran and chased after mr anton and we went in to the mini room beside the staff clinic.... it was really EMPTY.... then the person jus told us to fill up the form and can go in and take the jab... fast.... so ok lo, since here already might as well fill up the form.. (sry maryam, at lst i told u we go take together next wk.... aiyo... sry ah.... luckily u never angry heez) then i remember mag asked me to help her enquired abt whether can take the vaccination during pregnancy.. so this was how i asked the staff..........

"Sorry, jus wan to enquiry on behalf of my colleague, jus wan to check right, if she is pregnant can she take this vaccination?"

The answer was no la... but the impt part was on the bold line.... haha i purposely said this line cos i scare wait they thot i pregnant then dun let me take the jab... haha got one experience abt doing x-ray.. now got phobia liao... so must be extra careful when i speak so as to not let history repeat... muahaha~

So when mr anton and me entered the room, there were 3 seats... 1 was occupied by a man.. he wore formal wear so if he is going to take the jab, he need to take off his shirt... then i was there... haha i was a bit pai seh when he have to take off his clothes in front of me... eh... like so weird for me... eeee... haha... ok so i took 1 seat and mr anton took the other seat.... haha b4 going in i told him i scared of needles.... then when i sat down, he teased me when i was looking around the room... he said "agnes, scared ah?? haha" haha then the nurses said he very bad disturbed me.... hahaha~ then b4 u took the jab they will asked ur name again and asked u question la... then so funny, when they abt to ask mr anton abt the pregnanct part... in his form he wrote "NA" then the nurse abit confused... haha then she was saying sth like he can jus leave it blank since he is a guy... haha then mr anton joked tat he haven pregnant YET... haha then the nurse said if u really pregnant i have to put u in the musesum le.. rare species... hahaha~ ok, so time for jab!!!!! when the needle go in it was ok la... then when they pump the fluid ah, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was real uncomfortable u can feel it thruout ur hand and very very aching man..................... then after tat i told mr anton tat my left hand like no strength like tat, he said he also felt it, he worse la, right hand yo..... then when we are working we asked each other how our hands feel... haha then one thing we agreed on was tat we feel very sleepy.... brain like floating.... so my afternoon special stains also dunno i got do correct anot... OMG.... then after work he said he dun think he feeling well, then faster go home liao.... after work i was real sleepy... not tat kind of tired sleepy.... think is the effect yo~ i asked maryam to escort me home... haha she keep laughed and said she believed i will make it back home... muahaha~

On the train i was telling maryam and PY tat i very sleepy, dun feel like going to the party lei.... wait my head cannot take it...... but maryam asked me to go la... good chance to go condo and see their BBQ at the pool side la... then PY also said ya lo, go there enjoyed urself ma... dun miss the chance.... in the end i told raine tat i need a nap, then she said if by the time i wake up, i wan to go then i give her a call la.... so ya, i thot i sleep for a long time but i actually only sleep for like 1 hr yo... until 7.30pm.... so i gave her a call... then i asked her whether she reaches there le ma.. she said haven around 8 plus then ah fu will come and pick her up... so she called me to go changed la... haha she said no need to wear nice nice... haha ok la... like tat i can changed super fast... haha i was ready at 7.40pm and sat at my dining table talking to my mum..... while waiting for their call la....

So ok he picked us up abt 8.20 like tat ba.... so well... yesterday he was tired as he said he only slept for 4 hrs due he and his guy frens driving their cars until 3am.. (oh my, how they do tat, jus driving and testing new car can until so late..) but one thing still gd ah, he tired but his mood good.... so me and raine keep suan him la~ cos we dunno his classmates so we jus sat at another table.. then here and there raine will walked off to help out la.... so left the both of us there.... and of cos, i continued suan-ing him.. if i dun take the opportunity now to suan him then i really miss this excellent opportunity lo~ haha cos u can hardly see him talking craps so much and mood real gd to accept the suan-ing..... ok la, here and there got talked normally to him la.. but i jus keep get the suan-ing momentum back, and i will go back to suan-ing him again.... muahahaha........ ya thru out the night we were jus suaning and suaning... i think it as fun to do tat lo.. ops.. i so bad... haha but nvm....

Then he wanted to slp but i keep disturbed him dun let him sleep... so ok la.. dun be so mean le.. i told him if he really tired then no need to send us home... haha guess wat he said... u all surely know wat he said la....

he said...........

I SIAO AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!

argh........................

then he continued, saying i crazy............................

argh..........................................

ok then i suan him back again........................................ i said u ah, always keep said me siao and crazy, can dun said me anot huh... then he said ok lo, i said u.............

MAD...............

argh...........

Then i suan him again!! i said u know ah, every time u smsed me ah, like my temper was ok la, then when u said me siao ah and is repetitive ah, wow, u see the sms u will feel angry de lei....... so dun said me siao hoh.......!! ok la my tone was not fierce jus tat i mean it la.... then he said ok so he will said 讨 厌 (in the tone of a CC, haha)eeeee.... goosebumps....... then i said can change anot sound gross... haha~ then he said ok la, u so 可爱(cute)... then i said ok... hahahaha although still sound abit sick.. muahaha~ then i said wat he keep on said 可爱, raine came to talk to us, he also keep said tat.... aiyo........*faint*.... when i reached home, i faster charged my hp as it went completely flat at the party.. so when i on the hp, i saw 5 msgs.... one was from yen, two were from alex, one from sec sis and the last one was from ah fu... -_-"" guess wat he type... he type "u so ke ai.... bleah....." -_-"" he really lame tat night....

Well, actually in the party when we are talking normally, i was asking him wat was his lst impression on raine...... he said he knew her when he went over to CS's house to repair PC and raine was at his house studying.... then after tat they began playing mahjong, and realised this girl was an active girl.... i was curious, cos tat day when he and raine got some arguements on the present thingy, he was saying wat he was not happy abt... ok now let me reverse further back abit to wednesday conversation when he was talking to me on the phone regarding the present thingy..... he was saying he dunno how to really talk to her sometimes as they always ended up pissing each other.... he said if a guy hang the phone on him, he is fine wif it... but if is raine, he felt very pissed... so i asked him.....

Me: Hey you very 在意 (mind) how raine treat u is it....? (well i am asking him sth indirectly ya, if u all realise..)
He: No la.... i know wat u trying to mean but is not abt 在意, it jus tat i find tat is not appropriate for a girl's to behaviour like tat.....
Me: Jus so simple???
He: Ya, u think wat... cannot la... if we together, we will ended up killing each other.....

So in my mind, i was thinking maybe he feel pissed when raine hang the phone on him is like making him no face ba....

During work, i told PY abt it... and she asked me, when i asked him tat do i feel relieved when i heard his answer.... well to be frank, when i asked him whether he 在意 anot, i dun feel sad or anything negative... jus simply curious... and when he tell me his answer, i also dun feel happy or anything positive.... jus purely "ok i get it"....

Tat's simple la.....

Yesterday night party, i really had a great time suan-ing him... but tat happiness is not the same happiness when i lst know him tat kind.............. tat kind of happiness is between frens tat kind, like me and victor, me and alex, me and junquan, me and jed...... i see him as how i see my the other guy frens........ no special thots or any other things........... yesterday night party also make me realise tat if we jus stay the way we are, as in frens only, i guess my life will be easier as in i won't have alot of probs to handle.........jus wan it to be part of a memory of a funny fren........ we will always be frens.............. so haha me and him the relationship not complicated at all right.... ms yen, victor la have the impression tat is very complicated... haha~

But if goes back to the old question......... do i regret knowing him..............?

I still doesn't have an answer for tat.......................

It still was a fun friday wif funny colleagues and funny frensSS (include raine hoh! haha)

My first staining day of the 2nd mth~

Today was my lst day alone.... haha well it went quite smoothly la.. quite..... haha tat smelly sabo ah.. i wanted to strangle her... trying to make my shifu scold me.... pooi....... u.............. despicable!!!!! yuck.... disgusted...... hm today lst time i talked to her with a real stern tone and with an unfriendly face.... pooi.... trying to 拍马屁.... eeeee!!!!!!!!! hmmm~

Haha as usual.... my heart is getting weaker and weaker le... cos my shifu's voice so sharp.... aiyo... everything her voice turned into sharp tone, my heart will skip a beat yo... no joke yo.... hahahaha...... oh well wat to do, she is my shifu... must learn from the best.... haha~ if anything, luckily my mum work at national heart centre yo.... anything wif my heart, she can help me arrange appointment yo~ hahahaha!!!!

Today my lst lab in sch, also went smoothly... around 8.15pm jiu go home le... haha me and lab partner coordinate well... heez..... gd partner man~

Now i wondering tml CS's party, wat will be the outcome lei?? Will i enjoyed myself ma, or will i ended up like last yr like tat, bored......................... at lst i thot of going to the party wif raine.. but she said she will go straight from her workplace.. then i dunno how to go.. so she suggest to me to ask ah fu to drive me go... so ok lo.. i around monday i asked him whether can long bang me anot.... he said can..... then he will tell me the time 1 hr in advance..... woo................ also wonder he and raine will talked a not... cos they sort of argue over CS's bday.... hmmm............. well long story... haha i middleman, neutral.... haha~

I guess i will really update in full tml after the party yo~ heez...... wee~