Hmm, pondering~

Well recently lots of things had happened around me…… Be in family, be in work or be in school……….

Let’s start wif school…

Well school was so far so good, jus tat this wk had 3 lab practicals 3 days in a row… so abit lack of focusing in whatever I do these past few days… I will jus do… never think much… brain abit dead… like this morning, somehow feel dizzy in the OT lab… but must hanged in there no matter wat… keep tell myself tat after a while, the dizziness will go away and dun think abt it…. Luckily it did went away…. Phew….

Now let’s come to life as a whole ba… (Combination of work and family)

Well to me… now it jus seem abit… abit confusing I must said………….. Like u and tat person (e.g my sec sis’s bf) seem to get along well in some sense… but as time goes by, u realized how his attitudes changes…. In the end, it jus ended up making me feel so pissed and turned off by it…. How strange one idiotic act of him, make me dislike him…. Perhaps it can be resolved easily… maybe close one eye and open one eye again…? Nah I dun think tat is workable anymore… if I were to do tat, I guess the border he had crossed previously will be much more overboard…. Like wat my mum always said “有一 次, 就会有第二次”… How am I going to face him next time around?? I not sure… but one thing for sure, it will never be the same like last time again…………. Never……… I dun think is petty la... haha am i right?

Sometimes, u thot tat the pple around u make u feel like u can jus be urself…. But as time goes by, things jus doesn’t seem to be the same anymore…. Somehow u will be abit confused over wat pple said abt u…. how strange…. Although there is a line saying tat we must not be bothered by how pple looked at us…. Tat is absolutely true…. My family members always tell me tat, and I always remind myself tat…. Gradually, it jus make me feel tat “Are the pple around me, who I think they are? Or are they not?” It jus makes me pondered every now and then… My mum always tell me not to trust pple so easily… Haha, oh well… haha, but I am those type of pple, when pple nice to me, I will nice back and will jus continue to be nice until I see the dark side of them… that is when I get bitten le… tat is not very gd right, isn’t it? Well, wat to do…. Mother nature in some sense ba… Eventually, a kind of cautiousness builds up in me…. If I wan to really chat wif someone, must see who I can chat wif…. Even if come to gossip, must also choose the right person… Haha... but ya.. tat how it goes sometime isn’t it?

Suddenly realized tat life is full of challenges when the time comes……. Maybe is becos last time I am still young, only know how to have fun and study…. But now my life is really more than tat….. Lived in this world for 22 yrs, I guess there are more things out there for me to encounter, to experience and learn from it…. Cos life is not a bed of roses right…. If one bad “fall” were to bring me down, how am I going to face the things tat I had to face for the yrs to come, right? Even if I cried so hard, I must still find the strength to stand up….. Most importantly, I must learnt from it……… Dun let history repeat itself….

How pple think, I can’t stop them, cos it is out of my control… wat I can do is always tell myself to “加油, 明天会更好”…. For my part, i will do my best and put in effort to do it.... hmmm...

The path I walking now maybe quite rocky i realised, not as easy as it seems, but I know tat my family, my frensSS will be there and be part of it de… hmmm…..!! I can do it de….. I must be more matured in handling such probs!!!! Ganbette, Agnes….!

Drived away all the confusion!!!! Shoo~ Shoo~